The Way Back to Me (Back to Me, Book #1)
By Anne Mercier
Released February 23, 2016
She used to be perky, fun, and full of life—everything I hated about girls and their bullshit exterior. People called her bubbly; I called her “fake-as-hell.”
The edgy, dark, lonely girl in front of me was not the Olivia Brennan I knew from high school—far from it, actually. I knew the story—the whole town knew the story, we witnessed it all. It happened in the blink of an eye and the girl we knew was gone.
But I refuse to watch it anymore—I can’t stand it. I’m going to fix it—fix her. It’s time I showed Olivia her way back…Back to the girl she used to be.
“She really needs to get up. She’s been in that bed for two weeks, Trish,” my dad says to my mom. They’re right outside my door again. I sigh softly.
“Leave her be, Greg. She’s not ready yet.”
“She’s never going to be ready. No one’s ever ready for what she has to face.”
Mom sniffles and I know she’s crying again. I’m so tired of hearing her cry. There’s no reason for her to cry—not because of me. I lived.
I wish I could cry but I can’t. I haven’t cried since I woke up in the hospital. I didn’t cry from the pain of my fractured and broken bones. I didn’t cry at the funeral when I stared down at the lifeless body of my soulmate—the body lying there was unfamiliar—not at all my Danny. I didn’t cry while I struggled on crutches with a fractured rib over the uneven lawn, past all the weathered gravestones signifying just how final death really is.
I didn’t cry when I lost it at the people—strangers—who didn’t know my friends and my love by more than a passing hello stood there crying and carrying on. They didn’t know their favorite color, their favorite food. They didn’t know Danny chewed spearmint gum. They didn’t know Simon kept us laughing. They didn’t know Cassidy was our support system. They didn’t know Phil wasn’t really as shallow as he led everyone to believe.
They. Just. Didn’t. Know.
They didn’t have a right to cry for people they didn’t know—people who weren’t good enough for them while they were alive.
And me? I just couldn’t cry. I didn’t even cry when my parents took me home and I stared at the corkboard filled with photos of me with my friends, me and the love of my life holding one another and laughing—a life that no longer exists. I stared at it for the hour I waited for the cemetery workers to cover the graves of those I love most. Then I went to them with my tequila.
My eyes are locked on that corkboard now and I can only stare mutely.
I don’t want to feel. I don’t want to face a future alone, so I stay in bed and sleep. Sleep is the only friend I have left.
Sleep embraces me and holds me tight, blocking out the pain and grief that would otherwise fill my shattered heart. Sleep enfolds me in a cocoon of nothingness, and nothingness is what I crave.
4.5 Stars – a story of immense tragedy, love and friendship and learning to accept the past
Right from page 1, I knew this was going to be an emotional read and I was not wrong. This book grabbed me right from the start and had me welling up one minute and chuckling to myself another which given the background to the story was a little unexpected.
The book starts with tragedy and we meet Olivia about to embark on college, the sole survivor of a horrific cash which took the lives of her 3 best friends and love of her life, Danny. Olivia is broken but needs this as a fresh start until she finds that her room mate is Alexa, a girl from back home that she used to be friends with which is not the clean break she was hoping for. To make matters worse her brother Cameron attends the same college and he used to bully Olivia and make her life hell.
At the start Cameron continues along with the same behaviour but as the story goes on we learn that he has his own story and the reasons why he treated Olivia so horribly. He can’t stand to see this dark and broken version of the Olivia they all knew back home and is determined to help her through this and at least bring her back to some of how she used to be. He was not a likeable character at the start but that soon changed as his relationship with Olivia developed.
To say I loved this book doesn’t seem right somehow, I feel like I need to say more. It is a beautifully written book about love, friendship, immense tragedy, heartache and learning to accept the past and to move on with life. This book left me with the reminder that we should never take love or life for granted and to live each day to the fullest. I absolutely cannot wait to find out what happens next and to see what Anne has in store for Olivia and Cameron.
What people are saying about The Way Back to Me:
I’ve read my fair share of books that can make you feel invested and connected with characters, like you know them on a personal level. But what Anne Mercier delivers in The Way Back To Me, is what I can only describe as a deep ache. – Beneath The Covers Blog
This is one of those books that just reach into your chest, grab you by the heart, squeeze, and makes it hard to breathe…but in a good way, if that makes sense. I absolutely could not put this book down. – Amazon Customer
The story is so beautiful and touching, emotional and heart breaking and romantic and sweet all at the same time. It will make you smile, shed a tear and applaud. – Amazon Customer
The best book I’ve read this year! I’m hungover and it was worth every single word! Nothing I can say here will do it justice, do yourself a favor and 1-click it! – Author, Sapphire Knight
I was born and raised in Wisconsin and still live here today with my two sons and puppy. (Though one day soon I hope to move to southern California!)
I’m an avid reader who gets inspired by reading the stories from my favorite authors as well as listening to various types of music. I am a huge fan of music, chocolate, fruit, desserts, autumn, M. Shadows, Avenged Sevenfold, and Milo Ventimiglia. Through my books, I am proudly creating new Avenged Sevenfold and Milo Ventimiglia fans one reader at a time.
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“The best part of being an author, to me, is being able to take the reader to that one place they long to go when they need to escape reality. Knowing I can do that, for even one reader, makes what I do worthwhile.” ~ Anne Mercier
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