Genre: Erotic Romance M/M
Friends since kindergarten, North had been the one to jump first, and his fall into Will’s bed ten years ago had been no exception. Will and North had been inseparable, but things change, people grow apart, and even a blazing flame can dwindle to a dying ember over time.
The more things change the more they stay the same.
After a run in with a bottle of Bundy rum, Will and North find themselves in a compromising and all too familiar position.
Blurred lines, bad decisions, and one wrong foot after another lead these two down a spiral of sarcasm, secrets, and sex, but when North’s hetero status is called into question he can’t figure up from down. And despite Will telling himself he wouldn’t fall again, he’s head over heels and wandering without a compass.
Love is love.
Love is truth.
Love … shouldn’t be this damn hard to figure out.
I push my glass towards him for another refill, downing the shot of liquid courage. “You ever think about what might have been?”
Will scoffs and sets his glass down. “You’re seriously asking me this?”
“What?” I say, getting pissy now, because he acts as though he’s the only one who lost something. “I can’t ask a question?”
He takes another sip, avoiding my gaze. The humour has left his face; his mouth forms a tight line as he stares down into his drink. “You can’t ask that question.”
“Okay then,” I say, agitated that he’s calling the shots. I ask a question I’ve been wanting the answer to for a very long time. “Why didn’t you leave?”
“Jesus, not you too.” Will shakes his head. “You sound like Josh.”
“Who the hell is Josh?”
He slams back the rest of his drink and beats his fist against his chest. “Fuck buddy.”
“You have a fuck buddy?” I clench my jaw. I’m starting to see why Bundy has a bad name. Right now, I’d like to find Josh and beat his fucking head in.
Will laughs. “Look at you getting all jealous.”
Is he fucking kidding me?
“How long?” I say through my teeth.
“How long have I been fucking him? Or how long is his cock? It’s about five for both.”
“Five what?” I snap. “Days? Weeks?”
“Months.” He rests his elbow on the bar, dangling his glass from his long fingers. “And inches.”
“You been fucking this Josh for five months, and you didn’t think to mention it?”
“I’ve fucked a lot of men in the last twelve years, North. Why would I mention any of them to you?”
“I kissed you.”
“Yeah, and I didn’t ask for it,” he says, swirling the liquor in his glass. “How many women have you slept with in the past twelve years?”
5 captivating stars – a story of acceptance, self discovery and most importantly love
Wow what a book!!! I have read a number of m/m books and am a lover of this genre for the raw but tenderness of the relationships but this book blew me away, literally, stealing my heart, capturing my soul and leaving me wondering what delights we can expect from Carmen next.
Friends since they were young, Will Tanner and North Underwood were once inseparable until the day that North shattered Will’s heart. Now they have little to do with each other and rarely talk unless it’s ordering a drink across the bar.
North has never been in short supply of willing women to warm his bed. With an alcoholic father who never thought twice about using his fists whilst he was growing up, his life has never been easy. Now working at the mill by day and drinking in the bar at night, the closeness and friendship he had with Will is long forgotten but have those feelings he buries really and truly ever gone away?
“How do you wake up every day and be exactly who you want to be?”
Will has always known who he is and has not been afraid to admit it but living in a small town full of homophobic bigots, things have not been easy for him but he has grown to accept it, to brush off the prejudices. The torch he has always held for North has never really gone out but has been left smouldering in the background, having never given up on the possibility that maybe, just maybe he may come to his senses and be brave enough to admit how he feels and who he really is.
Finding North is a story of self discovery and acceptance; accepting who you are and admitting its okay to be who you want to be and to love who you want to love #LoveIsLove. North has always known how he feels about Will and seeing him come to terms with that, understand that there is nothing wrong with it and seeing him fight for it made me want to stand up and cheer.
“Because this is the love of a lifetime, thirty years in the making, and even if it only lasts another week, I know I’ll never love anyone again the way that I love Will.”
I was captivated from the start and loved it more and more with each page that I turned and I’m not sure which one of Carmen’s boys has stolen my heart more. Her characters are so real, the emotions so raw that you could feel them rolling off the pages. The quality of the writing was so that I could vividly picture Red Maine, this small town in the middle of nowhere, feel the anger, desperation and all consuming love from both men. If you have never read a m/m book before then this is a perfect place to start and for lovers of Carmen’s books, as I am, this is another fantastic, beautifully written story that will stay with you long after the final page.
A tattoo enthusiast, hardcore MAC addict and zombie fangirl, Carmen lives on the sunny north coast of New South Wales, Australia, where she spends her time indoors wrangling her two wildling children, a dog named Pikelet, and her very own man-child.
A romantic at heart, Carmen strives to give her characters the HEA they deserve, but not before ruining their lives completely first … because what’s a happily ever after without a little torture?
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